I have become numb most of these days.  Its not normal.  It doesn’t feel anything, neither good nor bad. Just numb.  The chest feels as if it is contracting within itself as if everything my body and mind are conceiving is being sunk into the chest.  My breath has become slow and calm.  There is slight headache but I don’t like it.  I was want to feel good.  I want to feel happy. Not numb. Numb. Being numb is like having no life.  Just surviving kind.  But I want to live a life.  I want to be happy.  I think I have forgotten how happiness feels like.  How calmness feels.  Can things change?  There are tears now along with numbness.  There was a time when I used to go to a sweets shop and have as many sweets I wanted until my stomach was full and my appetite.  Now, I’m just going to shop to smell them.  When ever I do that, I become numb again.